sleepless

i really envy people who can get their heads down and get some sleep.. cos hell i can't just.. sleep! there's always shit running through my head, things i have to do, bills to pay, people i have to speak to, etc etc. and no it doesn't end there, after that there is the continuous self-assessment and judgement of how, what and when i did whatever i did. there are people who tend to be hard on themsleves, and then there's me - ever-critical and always dragging myself down.

once upon a time i could meditate to clear my mind, but these days concentrating for periods longer than a deep breath is almost impossible. just need to find that flow again, a set routine which allows me to get 6-8 hours of good and uninterrupted sleep, as well as getting at least two solid meals a day. as far as exercise goes, the menial nature of the work i do and the cycling to and from work adequately makes up for that category!

so now i end up trying to beat my insomniac tendencies by listening to ambient music, cooling the room and darkening it, and hoping fervently i will nod off and not have my eyes fly back open after a couple of hours! any advice you good folk might have?