life-changing experiences and all that

okay, now honestly, how many people here have been in a situation where you saw your life flash by in like a few milliseconds, and after the event, assuming you lived? (well, of course you did, you're here reading this now!! duhh me!!) anyways, and after that, you felt that your life changed because that was like a turning point or something in your life? i don't think too many people have had that.. i for one wouldn't be sure as to what kind of event exactly classifies as that.. as lots of events move me, but at the end of the day i still remain the guy i am, and have always been.

yesterday evening, after class.. i was walking home, minding my own business as i usually do. at the crosswalk for Main and Heath, i wait for the pedestrian signal to go green, which also means that cars from heath can go too, but they usually wait for pedestrians to cross first. so there i am, crossing, trying not to get too wet in the drizzle, when i feel headlights on me.. a little too close for comfort! i look up, wondering what the hell this bloke is doing, and then WHAM!! so i do this jackie chan-type stunt in the air, land in a heap, and then jump straight up.. very VERY pissed!!

so i'm standing there in the crosswalk.. letting fly with a stream of expletives.. "what the f*#kin' hell, you F@&K!! can't you f^$king SEE??!!" and then i look inside, at this girl, probably my age, hands-free unit in her ear, and she's white as a sheet.. her hands are shaking, and she's like in shock! she was stammering and stuttering in a very small voice "i'm sorry, oh my god i'm so sorry, are you okay..." and i'm telling myself.. yeah what the hell, just a few cuts and bruises.. no real damage.. and she looks like totally freaked out.. so tell her i'm fine.. and walk off.. feeling pretty good actually. good karma. be nice.

then when i get home and the 'rush' wears off.. the aches and pains kick in! one knee is a bit of a bloody mess, and left hand is bloody too.. but its all superficial.. and five minutes, a shot of vermouth and a cigarette later, i'm good to go again! drive safely boys and girls, i might not be feeling so charitable next time around!! :-))

right, getting back to the title of the blog.. so there i was lying in bed at night, my knee throbbing, and i was telling myself.. "maybe there's a lesson to be learned in this, maybe it's a sign, maybe this is supposed to be a turning point in my life.. " but when i woke up this morning, everything was still the same, nothing's changed.. i don't feel any compelling need to be a better person, or give it all up for monk's orders, or anything!! i'm grateful to be alive and kicking.. so will continue to live my life to the maxxx, as i have been doing :-D!! party on people!!