confusing

ever get that feeling that there's a post inside you, dying to get out.. you just don't know how to write it? the maelstrom of conflicting emotions.. should i make it angsty and brooding, or deep and meaningful, or even light-hearted and cheerful?

i just went out for a walk.. it's all dark and quiet outside.. a heavy blanket of fog has settled on the University Heights district. the sub-zero cold is keeping even the most ardent party animals indoors tonight. ".. hearts and thoughts, they fade, away.." eddie vedder croons.. on nights like this, it's natural that Pearl Jam sounds very soothing.. Seattle is like this over half the year!

something natasha said in her blog got me thinking.. are we trying to postpone reality by staying in grad school? postponing reality.. is that the meaning of life? we yearn for change, we dream of better days, yet when new vistas present themselves, we cringe and cower. we hold on to threads and grasp at straws, anything to staunch the bleeding of time.

"nay" i say, "for want of a better day i shall not lose today"