is this it?

the portents are all in place, the signs clear to see. i really feel that this time it's the real thing. the feelings struck me in the middle of the night.. flushed face, sweaty brow, increased heartbeat.. bright eyes, clammy palms, garbled thoughts.. a wry smile creased my face. i hadn't thought this would happen again, not with this intensity! oh well, i guess this really is it!

i have the flu.