10 things ..

NB: severe gripe post.. feel free to skip.

ten things that are kinda worrying me, or are on just my mind, or i wish i could complete, or that should just go away

10- this damned humid summer.. when the air lies still with all the menace of a lurking beast, but it never really rains properly, just a spitter here and a spatter there, which only serves to increase the humidity.. rain damnit

9- FDA Substance Screening rules and regulations being embraced wholeheartedly by corporate america. what's wrong with the management? they had their fun when they were in college, and now they wanna spoil it for us

8- need a holiday.. yes, i need to get away from buffalo for a few days.. party like mad, drink some alcohol.. no wait, make that a lot of alcohol.. chill out on a beach and swim in the surf. alas, no time and no money either

7- no time to read properly all the blogs on my list, nor to read all the comments, and no time to click on the 'Next Blog' button and discover more weird and wild people.. in fact i think up my posts and just type them out when i get a chance

6- no time to vegetate and watch junk tv, or any of my favourite TV shows.. no time to catch up on what's happening with my beloved Buffalo Bills.. or watch stupid cable movies.. no time to even flex my unlimited Blockbuster account

5- not getting nearly enough sleep.. throughout college i've slept either 3 hr/nights (when i've been partying and doing other non-academic things) or 10 hr/days (when partying till dawn and bunking classes).. and now, i'm a zombie getting by on 5 hours a night

4- this hectic, monotonous schedule.. work at the library from 8-2, then off to do experiments in the lab until 6/7.. come home, send out resumes, cook (sometimes).. eat and write the fuckin' thesis, then crash

3- the severe shortage of money.. this library job pays nowhere nearly enough what is really needed, and monthly bill-balancing is all a matter of keeping my head above water, and legs kicking out under me, barely

2- the employment scene.. i hear everywhere, on the bus, in bars, even up in the trees that it's getting better, and it's looking up, and other assorted horseshit. i've sent out nearly a hundred resumes, and.. nothing. fuckin' nothing

1- the research and thesis.. everytime i think it's near the end my advisor decides more needs to be done. everytime i start writing the thesis another research paper shows up telling me i need to know more and more

i'm just venting.. don't mind me.